Theres just so much in my mind right now. I cant think properly. Evryones asleep but im here tryna figure out where life is leading me to. Time goes by too fast for me to catch up with things i missed. My mood these days arent too good. I need things to fill up my time so that i wouldnt think too much. Evryones giving up on me, im giving up on myself. I have no one basically. Or i think i have keju ah. I think (?) but, in sch i need someone to talk to. Someone who understands my situation and not be happy about it. But all i have are those who are happy tht im in this kind of situation. Wth? Was i happy when you were dowwwwn? Not really. But you were rejoicing over what happened to me. A friend indeed. ANd then you'd say its such a bore without me. Fake much?

And you, im so amazed to see how fast you've changed eh -..-. Seee, thats why i dont have trust in people. Because when i start having trust in him/her, they'll just ruin my trust and expects me have trust in them after what they did/say. And when you know im not really happy about smthg, then youll start all your stupid lines again. Cmon la eh, ive been through this all th time and you think idk what youre doing? Again, i dont feel like im needed anymore. Again i dont feel like im special anymore. Again i dont feel like im appreciated anymore. I dont feel like i mean anythg to you anymre. And i dont think i can believe what you say anymre. I can feel that all of that are lies. You just want me to think that you care, when in th actual fact is, you dont.
If you think im talking about you, then youre right.

And to you,
i miss talking craps with you. I miss walking with you. I miss your smile. I miss your laughter. I miss your merepek-ness. I miss being angry at you. Ala i miss evrythg about you la.
Come back soon will ya? Cause i have so much to say, so much to tell. D: