yo.

ok so nw its 12 22 and im reaally pissed.
i paid fr th wizard of oz thingy and nw mom dont let me go?.
come on laa. its th holidaays fr god sake.
i need some time to spend with my friends too whaaat.
if adek can go to musical why cnt i go this thingg?.
sigh. i reaally waant to go. and if later todaay mom still doesnt let me go
i dont knoww whaats gonna happen to me.
im gonna cry siaaaow.
its been ages since i last saw my friends. understaand ah sikeet.


ok so yest, Atikah, my longlonglong lost cousin came to my houuse
to sleepovr. i cnt believe im meeting her ya'knoww.
its been 8 yrs since we saw each otheer.
hahah so on 11/11 we jalanjalan together. go golden landmark and stuff.
th pictures we took are nt alot but ill post some on th next post yeaa.
im like super happy thaat i get to see her. shes goingg bck maybe todaay.
idk. but times flies so fast when youre with someone youu love eh.
hahah. watched "THE COFFIN" at vivo cityy. scaary. i hugged Atikaah like hell
seeh. haha. we shouted like nobodys business. aft th movie i membebel.
i say " tu lah. org cakaap tengok HSM3 tknk. degel ak tengok criter ni. kaan daa menyesal"
haha. cause th movie we watched wasnt good ahh. in ouur opinion ah. [:
haiyoo. hahah. nevermind aah.
ok so these few daays i havent reaally been myself.
my face looks haggard. not because im tired or anythg. idk whyy.
i just dont like people who depends on their friends to do things.
like fr example Lady A is very upset and shes crying. then Lady B who happens
to be her bestf didnt came till Lady C told her to do so. and when Lady A asks
Lady B to go, Lady B will say, "Lady C told me to come here."
imaginee how it feels like. ohh btw this lady lady thingy is a made up one.
i thinkk iqaah knows whaat im talking bouut. *winks**winks*
sigh. i feel so different. theres this person whom i realise , is starting to avoid me.
i wonder whaat did i do wrongg. or maybe ive chaanged?.
i dont knoww. i waant to find ouuut. but i cnt. i jusst cnt bring myself to ask.
why?. i want to sk but i caant. seriously. th ego thts in me is getting th better of me i guess.
i just hope thaat things will turn ouut well. i reaaly do. i cry at night hoping and praying to
God to let evrythg turns ouut just fine. noone will be hurt. im th kind if person who is like
whenn im reaaly hurt, ill cry my ass ouut. and i dont want to do thaat. i hate crying.
cause itll just hurt me even more. sigh.
caan i be th one youu go to when youre feeling down?. cn i be th shoulder fr youu to cry on?.
can i be th person that makes youu laugh even when youu dont feel like it?.
can i be th person youu tell youur secrets to?. can i be th person you LOVE most?.
can i ?.
cause i waant to be that person. i want us to be th closest people on Earth.
kaay so im gonna search fr this one song by Natasha Beddingfield. nnt if i found reaady
i put on my blog. and i waant you to listeeen to that song if possible cause
its fr youuu.
sigh.




ive chaanged?. i dont knoww. im gonna do some soul searching fr nw.
tckre. D: