daay by daay, i feel as if life means nothingg anymore.
youre behaving so indifferent-ly towaards me.
i dont know why. i want to know but i just couldnt figure it ouut.
i did evrythg youu told me to do but still, its th same. theres no change.
whaat?. must i kill myself to lighten youu up?. am i such a burden to youur life?.
evryone else got th attention they need but me?. not even th least of it.
Cry?. even if i cried my heart ouut, noone will hear me.
Noone will waant to knoww why im crying. Noone will care.
When im on my on walking, i think to myself. What am i suppose to do to get
th Love i deserve from youu?. Huh?. Or maybe im just not fit to be loved by youu?.
i kept alot if things in my heart. Alot. But i cant express it to you.
Dont ask me why because i myself dont knoww why. sigh.
why must my life alwaays be in dilemma?. i waant to be happy like all th others are.
but i just caant.
noone knows who im talkingg abouut. let it be th waay.


hello?.

youu didnt call me. when youre online youu dont talk to me.
youu talk to th rest but not me. youu will tell me whaat happened to youu
only when i happened to call youu. but when i dont call youu,
youu wont even bother to call me and tell me what happened to youu, why
youre sad or smthg.
she means th whole world to youu and i dont.
youu mean th whole world to her and i dont.
guess i wont be th one youre closest to even if youu said we are.
even if youu tell evryone thaat we're th closest people, letme tell youu, we're not.
i want us to be th waay youu described us to be but i guess i caant.
youre even closer to th guys then youu are with me. so what am to say right?.
i cant force you to be close to me cause when someone is forced to do somthg,
they're not sincere with it. so i dont waant to force youu. guess i have to make NEW
ones. i dont want to be th centre person.
just say youu love her more than youu love me cause i knoww its right.
dont lie to yourself kay. love us both equally?. it aint right babe.
cause youu love th guys more than youu love me, dont youu.
its okaay kaay. i cant put a spell on youu can i?.
let nature takes it course?. i already knoww whats gonna happen.
whaaats there to wait and see whats gonna happen right.
im just a lil dissapointed because youu tell people we're th bestest friends
together but youu dont actually mean it do youu?.
cause if youu mean it, youll show thaat youu care.
youu can call her, youu can text her. but me?. not even ONE msg from you lately.
you dont call me asking me wheather im okaay anot, youu dont text me anymore.
youu dont knoww whaat to saay?. then dont saay we're close to each other.
cause when youre close to someone, youll talk abouut evrythg under th sun.
i just have to rely on my new mates i guess. gee, i guess i cant rely on th two of youu,
whom i think th bestest friends thaat ive ever got in my whole life, next yr.
BestFriends?. HeartBeat?. i thought i kneww what th meaning was but
guess i waas wrongg. sigh.

youu both left me brokenhearted. DDDD:




listen to th song on my blog.
thaat song is whaat i wish to do to th both of you.
but... sigh.